And one thing about being a reporter is you're sort of always pulling yourself kind of away from a situation at like a sort of emotional remove when you're reporting on horrific events and I kind of did that with myself too. Sort of like watching myself because it's sort of like my Russian side that's going through this cuz it's all in Russian, you know? I see yeah I see myself on TV but I see Evan. And so it's this sort of like I'm observing him, this guy as much as anybody else is until right before when I find out that I'm going to be swapped.
